Sorry that I have missed the last couple of posts. I am going to do the devotional and the Tuesday post today. 🙂
“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God – this is your true and proper worship. Do not confirm to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and prefect will.” (Rom. 12:1-2) (pg 181)
The Lord ask us to deny ourselves and to pick up our cross. This idea is hard for us too except, but if we do it brings our hearts joy. That seems like an odd idea but it’s true. God wants what is best for us and deny ourselves for for Him is what our heart really want. Our hearts are made to love the Lord and to live for Him.
“It won’t be easy at first; often we don’t recognize how strong a hold a behavior or thought pattern has on us until we try to let go of it.”(pg. 182)
With the Holy Spirits help, guiding us, the Lord is there with us when we step into a defining moment of change.
Suzanne Eller goes into a story about a time where she fell back into the old habit of going to the playground of her mind. She was helping a friend who was ill. One of the things her friend asked her to do was to go through her emails. Delete any spam mail and to print off others for her to read. So she did, her having also given her permission to read the emails to know which ones to print. When she came across one email that really hurt her heart.
It was from a stranger her friend meet online. In the email the one she called a friend wrote this about her “I have to put up with her because I have no one else.”(Pg. 182) The rest of what she said wasn’t written here for us, but said she went on to say things that “misrepresented her character.”(Pg. 183)
She did so much for this friend of hers that she loved. Watched her kids, made sure she ate, washed her laundry, and prayed with her among other things. She left her home to go and help take care of her.
She ended up deleting the email that hurt her so much. Needless to say that on her way back home she found herself back at that playground. But during that time God also choose to talk to her. “My Savior taking me by the hand, leading me out of the playground to a healthier place. ‘It’s not for you Suzie. Not today. Not tomorrow. Not ever.‘” (Pg. 183)
The Lord placed a desire to pray for the one who hurt her heart. To lift her up in prayer, and to “hand Him my own sadness.”(Pg. 183)
The Lord lead her to let go of the hurt and to continually bring it to Him. It’s ok to feel the hurt, but it is not ok to keep replaying it and living in it. That is what I struggle with. I have had experiences similar to Suzanne Eller but not exactly the same.
Sometimes you can work things out with the one who hurt you, and you should. I personally wasn’t given a chance to with the one who hurt my heart. Jesus wants to fill our brokenness with His love. When we see things that us from God’s perspective, we start to see the truth behind the hurtful action. Which leads to compassion for the one that hurt our hearts.
~Mended Heart Challenge~ (Pg. 190)
- Prayerfully go on a “thought” fast. Anytime an unhealthy thought comes to mind, deny it. Do not entertain it Do not nurture to.
- Do this for one week.
- Fill your thoughts with Scripture each day (2 Tim. 1:7 is a great one to begin with). Place the verse where you will see it several times throughout the day. Read it out loud.
(The Mended Heart by Suzanne Eller. Chapter 8 Pages 181-190 underlined)