“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house… He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.” C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity (Pg. 171)
~The Playground Of Our Mind~
When you think of a playground you probably think of one you used to go to as a kid. Of your favorite thing to play on and how much you may not have wanted to leave. Just stay there and have fun.
Well, the playground of your mind is really a playground for your thoughts. We tend to go there when we are angry and hurt. It is where we go to think about what we should have said or did. What we wish could say what we want and how right we are or think we are. We “replay the words or situation like a child going round and round on a merry-go-round.” (pg. 172)
At this playground we don’t deal with what sent us running there to begin with. We stuff it down deeper and deeper and don’t feel any better when we leave it there. In the playground of our thoughts, we are always right to ourselves, and the others are always wrong. But that isn’t truth. That is our pride talking.
God wants to lead us out of there and to a place of grace “for those who said the wrong thing, reminding me that we all stumble with our words.” (Pg. 172)
God wants to lead us to grace for others and ourselves. This past week and days God has been leading me to let go and give others grace. My first reactions are “NO!” do you know what they said about me. Did you not hear what they think about me! It hurts a lot!
Needless to say, I was in the playground of my mind this past week and days. Some today as well. But just like for Suzanne Eller the writer of the Mended Heart God has been showing me that this “safe place” or “playground of my mind” is just keeping me trapped. I can’t move forward in this place. Nothing will ever change if I stay.
It’s not easy to let go. I would know I am famous for holding on. Scared that if I let go I will just get hurt more. Not taking in to consideration that I’m just hurting myself where I’m at.
“The playground is a stronghold. Let’s break that word “stronghold” down: stranglehold, vice, iron grip, monopoly, domination, throttle.” (Pg. 174)
I really don’t want to be stuck in that type of place. Do you?
When we are stuck in that frame of mind we don’t live in the moment we live in the past. We are unable to love those around us fully. We don’t deal with new situations that are hard or difficult to us. We also will not feel peace.
(The Mended Heart by Suzanne Eller. Chapter 8 pages 171-174 underlined)